I don't post personal often, and NEVER this in-depth...but I had a bit of an anxiety attack last night.  I was reading an article I sort of had a niggling feeling maybe I shouldn't be, about 50 Shades and the abuse in it.  I read through half and I was fine--they were things I'd experienced, but things I KNEW were abuse and I KNEW I'd experienced.  I skipped to the very last one....and it broke me.  Because it WASN'T something I'd considered, but I'd experienced it, I'm sometimes STILL experiencing it.  Note to self: Next time you think you shouldn't read something, listen.

Trigger Warning for abuse here.  I'm sorry if this upsets anyone; I had to get it out of me somehow.

February 2015