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december
do you remember growing up? we were twenty-four, fresh out of college, and you were beautiful. your crimped-up, decked-out, rust-red-tinted hair smelled of black licorice markers and cups of chai tea. i buried myself in its webs that night. begged you to take me away.
and you did, love. the sway of your hips kissing mine stopped the world, and for ten seconds, i forgot what you told me. for a moment, i forgot you were already moving on.
november
your eyes were yellow, feverish, the frailty of your failing organs much too clear in the droop of your skin. rain pattered on the windows, a soliloquy of pain--my heartache, your thirst, the world's every loss in a thousand hard drops. at five, i moistened your tongue--ice chips, doctors told us five months ago, will be your best friend. but be gentle. not too much.--and wiped sweat from your forehead with fear.
do you remember, my love? you were a brilliant twenty-two in polka-dot stockings and lace at your wrists. i was still awkward, too gangly yet for my age, but you took my hand anyway. and i fell on my ass fifty times while you giggled and spun your ballet around me. i was too scared to admit that i'd never been skating before. instead, i took up your hand and i whispered--i'm sorry. i guess i can't help falling for you. care to catch me?
and when you laughed, belly-deep and low in your throat, i felt the world move underneath me. little did i know, you were already fading. for thirty minutes that day, you pirouetted me dizzy with every smile...and i watched you shine like a star.
october
do you remember, my heartstrokes? you were lively at twenty, perfectly poised while i was tripping on words. you found me battered at the side of the road, stopped when you should have never looked back. i was a bad boy in black clothing, my fingers callused from plucking guitar strings, the crook of my elbow tracked with twelve scars...but you still took me in. and when i was shivering, tongue bleeding from clamping my jaws down too hard, you held my hand tight and sang me into sleep. and it didn't last long...i lost you before i lost my hunger for the high...but you stuck around long enough to leave an impression.
and baby, i saw the sun differently after that. it wasn't your almost-webbed toes or your chocolate-scented skin. no, it was deeper. it was that look in your eyes when i said i was hurting. it was your voice when you told me that maybe you were, as well.
september
don't you recall, honey? you were a pretty eighteen, just out of your braces and trying new things. the wind, almost cold with a hint of summer and the sea, played tag with your hair as i offered the joint to your lips. and oh, how i longed to reach out. to kiss you. but you took one hit and coughed like you were dying and suddenly, the joint was under your toes. and i yelled, because it cost me a twenty and i was damned if i'd let it go to waste...and the moment faded away.
and for almost a year, you avoided my calls until i finally stopped dialing you up. until i almost forgot who you were, how you looked, why i loved you...but babe, there's one thing you don't know. when you tossed that joint down, when you put out the blaze, i wasn't angry at you for wasting a good time. i was angry at me for being so stupid. for thinking anything could be better than just being with you.
august
do you remember it, sweetheart? you were a sprightly sixteen with pigtails and freckles. you swore they were the constellations of your birth, a dragon in disguise guarding your secrets. i was a dim-witted boy with my eyes on your lips, your hips, the ways your hands sculpted my chest. and when i copied off you during science, you murmured that anatomy was better looked at then remembered, anyway. and i laughed, because i agreed.
and besides, i was chasing the skirts of every girl i thought i could catch, but you were always just out of my reach. you were too good for me, but i could still dream.
july
i'm sorry, my love, but you were an awkward fourteen in khaki and long tees, and i was the new boy in town. you told me you believed in pudding, that you were a romantic at heart...and that you could teach me how to survive. and the smoke in my hand was purely for show, but i tossed it away when you left. you were my heaven, and i was in love, though i didn't admit it.
and sometime between getting older and growing up, i realized you took my heart with you when you left...and to be honest, i knew i wasn't sure that i wanted it back. take me with you again now, baby, won't you? my heart is yours.
- i signed the form today, the dark clouds beyond your window--
do you remember growing up? we were twenty-four, fresh out of college, and you were beautiful. your crimped-up, decked-out, rust-red-tinted hair smelled of black licorice markers and cups of chai tea. i buried myself in its webs that night. begged you to take me away.
and you did, love. the sway of your hips kissing mine stopped the world, and for ten seconds, i forgot what you told me. for a moment, i forgot you were already moving on.
november
your eyes were yellow, feverish, the frailty of your failing organs much too clear in the droop of your skin. rain pattered on the windows, a soliloquy of pain--my heartache, your thirst, the world's every loss in a thousand hard drops. at five, i moistened your tongue--ice chips, doctors told us five months ago, will be your best friend. but be gentle. not too much.--and wiped sweat from your forehead with fear.
do you remember, my love? you were a brilliant twenty-two in polka-dot stockings and lace at your wrists. i was still awkward, too gangly yet for my age, but you took my hand anyway. and i fell on my ass fifty times while you giggled and spun your ballet around me. i was too scared to admit that i'd never been skating before. instead, i took up your hand and i whispered--i'm sorry. i guess i can't help falling for you. care to catch me?
and when you laughed, belly-deep and low in your throat, i felt the world move underneath me. little did i know, you were already fading. for thirty minutes that day, you pirouetted me dizzy with every smile...and i watched you shine like a star.
october
- they gave up hope today, the beep of your monitors high-lighting the crack in their voices, the hurt in their eyes. at four, they swarmed your room like flies to rotting flesh, never understanding that the flowers they brought you--
do you remember, my heartstrokes? you were lively at twenty, perfectly poised while i was tripping on words. you found me battered at the side of the road, stopped when you should have never looked back. i was a bad boy in black clothing, my fingers callused from plucking guitar strings, the crook of my elbow tracked with twelve scars...but you still took me in. and when i was shivering, tongue bleeding from clamping my jaws down too hard, you held my hand tight and sang me into sleep. and it didn't last long...i lost you before i lost my hunger for the high...but you stuck around long enough to leave an impression.
and baby, i saw the sun differently after that. it wasn't your almost-webbed toes or your chocolate-scented skin. no, it was deeper. it was that look in your eyes when i said i was hurting. it was your voice when you told me that maybe you were, as well.
september
- they stopped your medications today. you were pallid, your skin almost green, and you'd been getting worse, anyway. i was angry. how could they just give up like that? how could they just let you go? at three, i laid my head on your pillow--
don't you recall, honey? you were a pretty eighteen, just out of your braces and trying new things. the wind, almost cold with a hint of summer and the sea, played tag with your hair as i offered the joint to your lips. and oh, how i longed to reach out. to kiss you. but you took one hit and coughed like you were dying and suddenly, the joint was under your toes. and i yelled, because it cost me a twenty and i was damned if i'd let it go to waste...and the moment faded away.
and for almost a year, you avoided my calls until i finally stopped dialing you up. until i almost forgot who you were, how you looked, why i loved you...but babe, there's one thing you don't know. when you tossed that joint down, when you put out the blaze, i wasn't angry at you for wasting a good time. i was angry at me for being so stupid. for thinking anything could be better than just being with you.
august
- they admitted you this morning, your hair tangled and already falling out in my hands, your eyes pleading--
do you remember it, sweetheart? you were a sprightly sixteen with pigtails and freckles. you swore they were the constellations of your birth, a dragon in disguise guarding your secrets. i was a dim-witted boy with my eyes on your lips, your hips, the ways your hands sculpted my chest. and when i copied off you during science, you murmured that anatomy was better looked at then remembered, anyway. and i laughed, because i agreed.
and besides, i was chasing the skirts of every girl i thought i could catch, but you were always just out of my reach. you were too good for me, but i could still dream.
july
- you told me today, in muted tones, of the treatments, the hoping. the results of the blood test which had just ended your world. it was sunny outside, and i remember feeling cheated. how could the world be so beautiful when your body was failing? at one, you took me in your arms--
i'm sorry, my love, but you were an awkward fourteen in khaki and long tees, and i was the new boy in town. you told me you believed in pudding, that you were a romantic at heart...and that you could teach me how to survive. and the smoke in my hand was purely for show, but i tossed it away when you left. you were my heaven, and i was in love, though i didn't admit it.
and sometime between getting older and growing up, i realized you took my heart with you when you left...and to be honest, i knew i wasn't sure that i wanted it back. take me with you again now, baby, won't you? my heart is yours.
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Okay so at first I was like "ew long too many deviations don't want to read it"
Then I read the first couple of words. Then the next couple of words. And before I knew it I was done, and left with chills up my spine.
This is so gorgeous.
Then I read the first couple of words. Then the next couple of words. And before I knew it I was done, and left with chills up my spine.
This is so gorgeous.